i am feeling really down right now. and honestly, it is pretty stupid. the person who has me upset isn't even a very good friend. but, i will be working for her company soon, so, it is a bit complicated.
i was laid off a little while ago, and gained employment with a new company through an old work friend. she does get a bonus for successful hires, so it isn't completely kind of her, though i did appreciate the job lead.
anyway.
she has a real problem with my being a feminist, we have hashed it out through fb messages, but, she keeps posting negative things about feminism.. i know that it is directed at me, she just gets like this. but, i have never been the target of this from her.
now, by itself, it really isn't a big deal, but, i just get so tired of it.
she says i am bitter, and if i could just find a nice man, i wouldn't be so hateful towards men. of course, i explain that i don't hate men.
truth, i am rather used to this from people, but, i never post hateful things about men. anyway.
on top of that, every guy i meet, online dating, has to make an issue out of it as well. i am just so tired of it.. so tired of being asked, do you shave? do you hate men? you just need a good man..
i don't hate men.
and i am tired of dating, it feels like a huge waste of my time.
i have just had enough of explaining myself, of apologizing, of having to defend myself.
i keep telling myself to just shut up, to stop talking to people. i have deactivated my FB account, and i will focus more on writing. though this is a poor example of my writing! it is raw, and not very well thought out.
just really tired of it all.. of fighting.
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